So I'm in the shower last night...my life dreams seem to be washing down the drain along with my Suave strawberry scented shampoo and it hits me.
No not the bottle of shampoo...but a new idea for a book.
Can you f'ing believe it? So far I have 3 unfinished WIP's that I can't even fathoming finishing this year and here comes this idea shuffling its way into my already massacred life. What's odd is that it seems so clear. I'm excited about it in the way you are when you get a new puppy. Its all cute and happy. You want to squeeze it make up stupid names....until it pisses on your carpet and you want to kick in the ribs and drop it in the middle of a desert.
Is this how my new idea will feel once Ive started to write it? Will it be yet another burden? Another cherry to put on my oh so wonderful crap pie?
Or do I embrace the idea? Do I run to it with arms open and just write it? Knowing that I may never get published and I might as well just write whatever crap comes to mind and bludgeon family members and friends with whenever I get the chance?
Sure, it sounds doable.
But then again I can't help but feel the Grim Reaper of failure breathing its rancid fragrance on the back of my neck. If I start this book I may never finish the others..I can hear them now gathering dust, their bad grammar haunting my every thought... the ghost of a not so pleasant past hovering around my life like unpaid property taxes.
What do you do, Dear Blogging Friend...when you have so much unfinished work and come up with a new BETTER idea that you want to write as soon as possible? Do you start the new idea or do you torture yourself with the old one KNOWING that no one will ever read that crap?